Doing the opposite of what I am told.

For blogging or any type of writing, I have been told that it is important to write what you know. Sometimes I tend to do the exact opposite of what I am told. Much like many other people, it seems to be the human instinct. If you are not supposed to be around someone, you find yourself around them. We want what we can't have. It is always told if we are looking for love, we won't find it; yet, if we are not looking, it will magically find us. If we don't want to eat something, it is usually what looks the most delicious and we find ourselves indulging. I have realized this more and more in my life, the things we want or think we need, we won't get, or will come to us when we least expect them. This recently happened to me. Here's the low down: So I started online dating trying different sites, none of them seemed to work. I had met a few cool guys, but things just kinda didn't work out. For so long, I have had this picture of what the perfect guy I was looking for was like. He was tall, handsome, well built, with beautiful eyes. He would probably be in music, similar to my field, loved travelling...etc, I had all the details worked out. After multiple times being hurt, and many things going wrong, for once in my life, I thought...cool I am just going to marry my career. Or atleast for the time being spend much of my time focusing on that, and becoming the person who I am. NOPE! I went out with some friends with the intentions of having fun and a girls night. We are at this tiny bar, and I see this guy across the bar, and I just got this weird feeling...it was a good feeling. After awhile, I ended up talking to his friends and him. We exchange numbers, and a goodnight kiss. It turns out he had just moved to the city I moved to Toronto from. Bad luck....anyways I really didn't think anything of it. A week later, I went to visit a friend, stayed with him. I have never had such a connection with someone. I feel like I have known him for years, like I can do anything and he would accept me. We spent time together the whole weekend, I didn't want to leave. Now....we are both on the same page that we have never felt like this before, either of us. Never had this unrealistic connection. We decided we owe it to each other to see where it goes. I have no idea what to think....feelings this strong....they scare me. A lot. He is not who I thought I would find myself kissing. But I have never more felt like spending time or needed someone more. Could this be more serious...I am trying to write this, and I can't even bring myself to this word. I knew from the moment I saw him, I wanted to get to know him. I wanted to be around him. I wanted to hold his hand. I wanted to spend all night talking. Now it's actually happening. This world has such a funny way of making things work. This is probably the worst timing for me to be attached to anyone, but I can't just let this pass up, and he won't let me not take my other opportunities....does this turn into long distance while I leave for 6 weeks?? I guess so. Is this me just trying to pretend that my dreams are my reality, or is this real?? Is this just a case of the rose-coloured glasses? Christina